Here's to the lonely

So I wear a mask... I pretend to be happy and okay and such... but I'm not... not even close. Honestly, I feel unbelievable alone in this world. I feel like I fit in to no ones life. Or I'm not the girl people want me to be, or I live to far away. Or they liked drugs better. I know every excuse. I'm not even upset because of that... I'm upset that I don't feel like I belong in my own skin, or in my own home... or anywhere... I feel completely....alone.